A man of sorrows
Feb.2, 2017, Los Angeles
By Dr. Moses Lee
My beloved fellow workers
In the crisis of Korea which is hanging by thread, I am endeavoring to establish its leadership under the commission from the Lord.
I apologize to you for quitting my message. Now I am doing hard work 17 hours a day. Please pray for me.
I was in the hospital several days, because my doctor, who is considerably well-known, said that I had to be confined in the hospital. I had the symptom of shingles and that of stroke caused by diabetes with the glucose level of 298 which lasted for the last three months. He added he thought it was strange for me not to die.
I’m flying from place to place awfully tied up because of the tense situation of Korea, even though my doctor had warned my symptom could lead to death. It is 36 years, 60% of my life since I’ve lived away from home. I have muddled through the bitters of life like independence fighters without homeland to return to, without my wife to welcome me home.
During the Japanese Colonial Rule, the Holiness Church pastors proclaimed the Second Coming of Christ, exclaiming to the Japanese emperor, “Kneel down to the coming King Jesus and repent!”. All the Holiness churches were forced to shut down, breaking in shivers. Lots of servants of the Lord died a martyr one by one after being severely persecuted and tortured.
Following the example of my senior pastors, I am going to walk along the way of the Cross, though guillotine is ahead of me, electrical torture is waiting for me or diabetes is in the way,
I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit warns me that prison and hardships are facing me. However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me--the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace. (Acts 20:23-24)
If someone asks me to choose one verse truly touching my heart, I’d rather say Isaiah 53:3 without any hesitation.
“He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not."
My fifty-eight years of life can be expressed in a single phrase : A man of suffering. My life was a lonely one with a series of hardships, in the years to come I just can see the way of the Cross.
It’s like I’m a farmhand born to undergo hardship. Maybe that’s why cheerful songs don’t appeal to me. Whenever I sing a hymn, almost everyone cries with me. I thought I would cry full of God’s grace before, but now it looks like tears of groaning are coming out in pain because of hard life.
I am just a donkey running for forty years with the Lord Jesus on my back, without even a sabbatical year. Now I am running into the Fire. Please have mercy on me; pray for me. I am charging towards the enemy with sick body and weary soul.
Hoping to see you again in the Lord.
Moses Lee, in the Lord Jesus
Ps - The word of God this year is Hebrew 6:13-20.